Brushes and Paints

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2009-08-29T16:37:00.004+08:00

tak180.com got me addicted to all the mini series they got there. I am hooked right now. Currently watching my 4th series, I <3 vampires. It has nothing related to Twilight. I personally think this is way better than Twilight movie 'cause the actors and actresses here showed more emotions. But it's rather annoying because it only stops at episode #19. You've got to wait for the upcoming ones. So here's the first episode (you can find it on youtube.com also)

I <3 vampires : Episode #1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TkyE17Uulc

If you liked this; you would probably want to watch these too:
1) My Alibi
2) In2ituion
3) My Date

You won't have to deal with any agony waiting for the endings unlike 'I <3 vampires' for these three series. Give it a try! Believe me, you want more after each episode ends (and it somehow will help kill time before break-fast comes) *Winks.

Adam Chambers. He rocks! ♥
I need a wardrobe makeover!
And I won't be able to attend on 31 August):

Is it enough to love?

2009-08-28T19:04:00.004+08:00

Have you ever take a good look at the sky today? It's more than beautiful; indescribable. It's as if we are having spring in Singapore and different-different flowers are starting to grow and bloom. Isn't that magical? Yeah, it's been pouring a lot lately though but either ways I love it both.

I don't understand why I must get effected every time I read your personal messages. It's not funny at all. I should be the one having myself feeling relieved but how come it must turn out to be otherwise? Utter crap.

Random video for the day :

Well, I am not sure if this will work(: Wanna do some experiment on this?

I am craving for mcspicy and seaweed shakers. Blehh. Can someone please deliver this on my doorstep during break-fast? Pretty pleaseeeeeee ><

1, 2, 3 GO!

2009-08-27T15:32:00.003+08:00

Class was a little dry yesterday, I can't wait for the hands-on class soon(:

I am planning to stay put at home for as long as I could. Hell ya, I miss homey like a whole lot. Been spending countless time in school or everywhere else but not home. I might sound like a boring teenage girl with no social life. But I don't give a shit about that. Some people out there, only god knows ..

Anyways, I realized I've been thinking too much. All the random stuffs. Maybe I would continue blogging about my random thoughts everyday :D

Random thought for the day : I want a BIG brother like JD ♥

Wonderful isn't it? And to consider the age gaps between him and his siblings, it's a huge one. A plus point for a guy like him(: JD loves kids.

To abang, I am proud of you(: Thank you for not doing what you wanted yesterday. Love ya!

Sink that in!

2009-08-26T15:15:00.006+08:00

So school's out for like about a month. Horray? Blogger is uglyyyyyy.

Have you ever really wanted to be somebody else when you got nothing else better to do? Like someone special whom you look up to, it doesn't really matter who but you really really badly want to be like them to make your life easier. I do and I think most of us does. Sometimes I want to snap out of my life and be adventurous, having a totally different routine of life. Damn, isn't that awesome? But that's impossible because it's impossible. Right, now I am talking logic. Blehh.

But I still want to be myself. Shit, you all know this but let me get this as a gentle reminder for myself : Life's suck and a bore and unfair and the list goes on and on.

Cause I pick the one with braces ♥

1 out of whole.

2009-08-13T00:01:00.012+08:00

Sometimes, I feel I am the odd one out. The left out kid.
With a weird kinda mindset which nobody could understand.
And people would go "HAH, WHAT?"

Sometimes, I feel so small and unnoticeable.
Like no one ever cared. Again the left out kid.
Sitting there watching them laughing to 'don't know what'.

Sometimes, I feel like I am loved. By everyone.
Being hugged or kissed or see that smiles on their faces.
But sometimes again I also wonder if they were really sincere.

Sometimes, I heard them talking about me.
Well, of course they never included me in.
They don't let me get involved. Now I feel all guilty.

Sometimes, I coax myself assuring that everything would be alright.
'Cause I didn't commit any offenses ..I think.
But why these feelings keep me wanting to ponder over them? Or maybe I do?

I was created to be different from you and him and her. I was designed being this way for some particular reason. I was molded to a special shape so that I am chipped with my own personalities, inside and out. Unique feelings of my own were added to complete me as a human being. I own myself for now. In another words, I carry and portray the real me. I don't need people to go around telling me what I must do or feel towards people/things/animals. I have my own thinking and opinions and brainwashing will not effect unless you are good at hypnotizing.

I rather but anything but ordinary, please.
Someone feel me?

I looked like my daddy, what the fark? - A
This sentence made me laugh until I have cramps. I am loving Blair Blair darling :D We seemed to be in the same wavelengths whenever it comes to serious talking or even crapping. Ifah likes that *Thumbs up.

W16L finally week. Somehow, we need to find a way to adjust ourselves soon.

A Summary

2009-07-01T08:56:00.009+08:00

This post was supposed to be up two days ago BUT the kookubird connection just don't let me to. I know someone is really looking forward to this; Excited-lah konon :P

Haziq I know it's kind of late but I would terribly want to wish you HAPPY 17th BELATEDBELATED BIRTHDAY! May you have a blissful life journey ahead and be blessed with great health. Keep your insanity level high 'cause you are really good at it. Thank you for being there for me almost all of the time with the advices and all and of course your nonsense -.- But i don't mind; my life would sucked without a friend like you :D

P.S: Haziq is a very vain pretty boy (I have proof ..)

Asked him to smile; he smiled

But ..

And his gay-ish pose

That was your (insert the cartoon character name) pose i guess *Chucking. Let's webcam again okay?

Went out for lunch-cum-dinner with Leticia honey yesterday. It has been a sooooooooo freaking long time since i get to do catch-ups with this girl. She and her quirky mindset, like usual. And I truly hope she maintain the way she is now :D

Leticia and her food = Happy Face

This one was mine = Also Happy Face

Adek came back from camp last week and she is in camp mood state still -.- Went to her 'Finale Performance', I expected the show to be very noisy and loud but it turned out to be just alright. But overall, it was still okay we did enjoyed ourselves *Smiles.

Adek and her stinky camp smell

After which, ayah and ibu decided to go to Simpang Bedok for supper(:

Grilled Fish Lemon Capper : Yum-ouh-mmy!

Programming tomorrow which means codes again which means I will be stuck again which means I will need Zhi Jian again which means I am going to be dead!

Dear internet connection, can you not be suck-y today, tomorrow and every time I need you?

(Fit in a title for yourself)

2009-06-26T00:39:00.014+08:00

As you can obviously tell and see, my laziness to blog has level-ed up. Well, mainly it's because i don't have much to share. No maybe it was just my alter ego who refuses to share, yikes):

I created a massive mess which i thought i will or at least turned out fine without those 'sweets'. A very wrong move and i must really get that into my head this time, lock it up if possible. Slash that feelings of being abnormal. But relying your appetite on pills? That's totally a freak! Sometimes, i just wish it was not even in my family trait. And if the sickness is a MUST to pass down, why me? Chosen one, my foot!

I will go tsk tsk every time i enter my room. Hate the sight of looking at my study table scattered with all the paints and brushes and books etc etc etc. I need a blindfold, seriously serious.

That skaterboy was probably a dream while in the bus -.- i am crush-less.
I miss Adek Afie effing load.

It is strange to see the feeling of LOVE (to an opposite gender) change an individual. Sometimes, they seemed lost/weak when it comes to 'head-bang-on-the-wall-cause-he/she-hurt-me-badly-and-i-feel-so-lonely-after-that'. Should we call it; Pathetic Love? I don't know why but they sound disgusting (no offence).

Come on people! If he/she breaks your heart everytime, everyday - that is equal to emotional blackmailing. You need to move on with life 'cause without couple love it's not even the end of your world. You will still have your girlfriends to gossip and bitch around a lil *Chucking. You will still have your guy friends who are muchmuch better to hang around with; the ones that will tease you on how stupid you are for crying so much. And by the end of the day, you laugh at yourself and will sooner or later agree to them.

The most important people of all, your family. For now, just let your mummy or daddy cuddle you up (okay, this factor depends on how close you are to your parents luh huh) No matter how old you are already, they will still see you as thier little ones. Of course, they will do everything to put that smile on your faces. Trust me: they wouldn't want to wipe that happy faces away at all.

My conclusion here, if he/she was not meant for you FORGET IT! Start wasting your time by exploring other fun, crazier stuffs to entertain yourself can?

Apologies if the post was harsh but i've got to snap some people from their fantasy world. *KNOCK HEAD. HELLO WORLD!
I was never that strong. Ayah ibu; they thought me how to.
Too much of babbling. I am not a counsellor.
My piece + your thoughts = the world's thinking together.
AND PLEASE! LOVE, TREASURE, SAVE THE EARTH (i am doing my part)

Never judge me that way

2009-06-18T11:20:00.021+08:00

Yesterday; Cognitive Thinking and Problem Solving Part I module.
3rd Meeting, Team 5 Presentation.

Status : Tired of waiting for the group to present, Pissed Off with the-we-know-who, Had
enough of getting 'shot' for that day.

Jocelyn: We need to have an Inductive Argument in order to prove. Inductive argument means a portable truth of conclusion.

Faci: Why are you talking about arguments? It is clear that the worksheet said nothing about arguments.
(Can't we put extra points on what we have researched on?! And i thought this topic links to the previous ones -.-)

Jocelyn: But for us to prove, we have to argue. Portable truth here means 50-50, it can be right or it can be wrong. It doesn't have to be 100% correct.

Faci: But the worksheet ..

Ifah: What we are trying to say here, we need to argue to prove our evidence are correct and to also backed-up our stand.

Faci: I don't think portable is suitable. Where do you get this point?

Jocelyn and Sugan: We got it from the net.

Faci: But I don't understand the word portable there. I don't think this is a good point.
(For goodness sake! Jocelyn explained that like a few minutes ago? HELLO!)

Ifah: Our faci understood what we were trying to present for this topic. Okay let me explain again..

Faci: Okay, you took this slide from your previous slides?

Ifah: YES.

Faci: Okay.

Ifah: THANK YOU.
(Silence)

Apparently, i totally lose my cool to this particularly aliened-women. I can't stand humans (for her case; ALIEN!) who enjoys judging other people. She was only there to relieve us for ONE blardy day, and there she was saying us this and that; other classes are so much better blablabla. *Bullshit

I tried to be nice and quiet as possible (cause i know people wouldn't like it if i were to explode) but as you can see i can't believe she passed those kind of bimbo-tic remarks. She kept saying we were lacking in our research and so on, but indeed she is muchmuch worse than we are. Damn, honestly i felt good after bombard-ing her :D

Heee, don't worry people i will do that under certain circumstances only *Terms and conditions apply.

I remember those simple things

2009-06-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Over time, pictures fades
All that's left are these empty frames
sleepless night, and stormy days
I've got prove that people change

Woke up, bathe. Didn't even bother to comb my hair. Fit myself with that old-school tee. Brushed plain pumps with orange and green and yellow strikes. One side's halfway done. The other side was ugly. Class starts tomorrow, don't feel like attending. Can i fall sick like now?

I slept the whole afternoon after painting pumps. And i mean the WHOLE SUNNY afternoon. I hate being tired cause sleeping is like a sunk cost effect (heh). Whatever, i am going to crash again.

Byebye boyfriend(: 14 June 2009
Shake it off ifah!

But now and now i'm like woah

2009-06-12T13:52:00.007+08:00

Currently: Waiting for time to pass. Entertaining my cyber-pet, kiki(: Catching a movie soon!

I promised myself to keep my camera busy later. Got that strong feeling it will be funfunfun.
May be blogging about it later ..

Chorus: HATIN ON THE CLUB (Rihanna Feat. The Dream)

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby, you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car
Ya'll kissing at the bar
Got me crying ..

You got me hatin on the club
'Cause you took my love
Ouh you took my love
And now you got me like woah
You got me hatin on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why would'you have to take my love

The lyrics are kinda cute XD

Seventeen and loving it!

2009-06-11T21:10:00.014+08:00

IFAH'S BACK! :D For some of you who are just wondering why i am not seen online for the past few days; i was in m'sia from 4th of June till yesterday. And abang, i am back in one piece! (and please reply my message) *SMILE.

That's not much to blog about what happened in m'sia cause the main thing we needed to rush there was painly because we were invited to attend several wedding receptions. Yes, severals. So can you imagine how blotted i was after all the brayni rice? But it wasn't so bad 'cause it took us a couple of hours before reaching to the other receptions. One thing i really hate about sitting in the car for too long; your butt gets hurt and will turn really warm -.- So in order to kill time, adek and me took lots of sillysilly pictures.

Warning; image heavy!

1) Adek's 'Open and Close' Eyes Effects.

2) The outcome of having to sit in the car for too long.

3) Honestly, i still adore swings(: (all time fave play-ground item)

4) And of course, some decent snaps of us.

Okay that's about it(:

Ayah and ibu decided to have dinner at Soeul Garden just now. Ayah said i ate the most. Really? I think so too; damn it i need to maintain my weight man! Serious shit. I can't stop munching since the day i reached m'sia. Temptation awaits ..

But for now, let me share this ..

This was only part of our dinner(: and i was hungry still after stuffing all those food. I think i am qualified to be a FOOD MONSTER already *WINK.

Having a date tomorrow with Zulaika! :D
I feel it's so lame for you to have something totally bizarre written all over your posts but nothing's done. Not even a simple one on one explanation. HAH. Nownow, whatever floats your boat.
I love adek afie very much!
I miss that cute smile of yours(:
Love the new look, more happy posts coming. Hehe.

I picked those pieces, myself

2009-06-01T22:21:00.004+08:00

Blame me for abandoning my blog. I apologize to those who made the effort dropping by hoping to see a new post from me. Try my very best to keep this blog updated ya :D

There's too many unhappy things going on around which would add no colours filling this space. So skip skip skip SKIP(:

School's out for about two weeks maybe lesser; cause i still need to head for school for practices. Am not really looking forward to it sometimes but that 'someone' just makes me want to go back to that studio every week *PEACE :D

I've uploaded tonnes of snaps inside my lappy but the problem is ..i can't send the unzipped folder to humans! I'll give it one more shot after this. Talking about snaps, i lost ALL the previous pistures in the desktop);

Had a mini shopping trip with Syaf, Iqek and Eeka after work yesterday. Bestbest! But i would loveeee to go again with ..Zulaika! And catch a movie too. Okay, i am getting excited for myself (these things do happen)

Pictures tomorrow, see how it goes.
Changing looks!
Gimme some enlightenment please.

It's all yours this time

2009-05-12T11:41:00.006+08:00

I feel like typing this down ..

Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku padamu.

-Faizal Tahir (Cuba)

Looks like you trusted them more than you trust me. No point for me to stand up for myself anymore cause you will surely be on their side; your kind of clique; your 'type'. I don't wish to elaborate further ..i need to move on mann.

Let me pour this briefly ..
I don't feel like blogging nowadays; i have a couple of things to share but they are all forgotten for now.
Am not in a really good state these few days.
Making a new waterproof 'SUPERMAN' shoe and poppy moorey's order really soon!
Programming sucks! I know nothing about the new topic.
I got through, practice soon without zulaika and ningning)':
Camera's well
I am craving for CHEEEEEEEEEESE BURGER!
__________ *BIG BIG SMILE!

W16L

2009-05-05T20:27:00.012+08:00

As promised, i will 'decorate' my post today with pictures! Some of it are super duper overdue pictures and shots, please bare with it would ya? *Big Smile!

First on the chart; our team's programming masterpiece. Yeah it may seem a little childish but i tell you; the codes to complete this scene is annoying + hacking confusing! Hell ya, this module really tire me down.

Without any doubts, W16L rocks my socks and shoes and feet! I am really glad i belonged to this class. Though it is only week 3, this is how united we are.

We purposely wore black on this particular day (except for Harith; but it's okay cause some of us are born to be spoilers :P)

Mei Fang IFAH Jeslyn ElizabethThe sweetsweet girlpals.
And they go craaaaaaaazy over my name, REALLY :D

Nicole IfahShe is the sweetest girl in class! (in my opinion) heeee. There are others too but i didn't get the chance to take a picture with them.

Okayyyy this is extremely retarded but i feel the strong urge of including this inside todays' post.

Alvin Harith

They snapped this without me knowing (and of course i know who was the mastermind) and set it up as my desktop display -.-. Just look at Harith's face; LAUGH OUT LOUD! Trust me, he is THAT nonsensical as shown above.

I came across a 'Superhero' survey and decided to try it out. And i was kind of satisfied with the results. So here's mine ..

Woohoo~ I'M A SUPERGIRL!

Awww, these souls are the best people i have ever met. Syaf dearie came all the way down to RP from Pasir Ris just to visit muhd and me. You see, i believe in order for a friendship to stay strong you just need to put in a little bit of extra effort and enjoy each others' company. On behalf of muhd, we thank you SYAF so much! Thank you for the laughter and the manymany snaps! LOL :D 3 years and still going on ..

More updates soon :D
Okay, i know i was bad. Heee~
AUDITION today ):

2009-05-03T22:15:00.005+08:00

UGHHHHHHHHHH! My camera is abducted by ants! Eww eww eww)': i am going to harbourfront straight after school tomorrow. Shit-ness.

I don't understand my own self-emotions. The feeling of being abandoned, it suck. Those questions; they keep replaying over and over agian. It is me or was it my stubborn mind? I hate to hang on to this aimless relationship. Can i have you to say it straight to my face; that you don't want me anymore? I hate the way you say you love me now.

I made new friends at work! Posting pictures up soon after my camera gets well. PROMISE!
K_____ (name unik)
Am trying my best to pick up my whole self now. why do i have to go through this agian; alone.
Auditions this week ..alahai.

A New Beginning!

2009-05-01T15:18:00.008+08:00

Hey Monday! Songs uploaded; i love it when tunning into songs which suits my mood :D

Going for work later, hopefully everthing will be alright cause aunt will not be there to guide us. Boohoo)': Wish me luck people!

TheColoursplash! is finally launched! Do support us ya, maybe you will find something to suit that outfit of yours there. Thank you very much :D

Put up new snaps soon; if i have them. My blog is getting 'naked'.

Grades not up yet, i don't favour anxiety.

Wtf, a C??? This is going to be tough for me. Ughhh!

Team One Science Module :D

2009-04-30T22:51:00.009+08:00

Science module for today and i didn't even go out to get myself a proper lunch just now (wahhhh). But it was all worthwhile cause i managed to find out my own observations and finish up the powerpoint slides *Pleased. Honestly, i felt todays' problem statement was tough. Though i studied physics in secondary school, i didn't get a clear view on what we were supposed to find out.

Butbutbut, i am very glad to team up with these souls down here, they have helped me alot :D

Harith Ifah Hari Jocelyn Mei Fang

Mei Fang drew this while we were having 6th P. Awww, and yeah we weren't really paying attention to the fasci. Heh(:

WHAT'S UP WITH YOU, DUDE?

A Letter B

2009-04-27T16:30:00.003+08:00

My BLOOOOOOOOOOG! Woah, i can sense my blog was calling for updates today so i dropped by *Chucking.

First up, had lunch with Abu! And being the usual him; HE TALKS ALOT, giving all sorts of advises on how to survive in RP. Tapi tak per lah bestbest die dah macam bapakbapak lah pulak(:
For now, i really enjoy going to school and will always look forward to it. W16L rocks! and it suck to see us separating next sem):

G.Bestfriend dated me on the 25th. It was all unplanned but i appreciate her effort of meeting me up. We went for dinner and catch a night movie; 17 Again. Like she said, it is a-must-to-watch-movie! Especially to girls who adores Zac Efron. REALLY! Anyways, thank you dearie. Ifah loveeeeees you!

Now i regretted cutting my hair. BOOHOO)':
I AM FLYING SOLO! I guess, i think, i hope, i don't know.

All Mixed Up

2009-04-20T20:49:00.006+08:00

I SAW ABU IN CAMPUS TODAY! :D and yes, i was verrrrry happy bumping onto him just now. It has been long seen i last saw him at Lagun Sari. Lunch-ing on Friday is a must.

Besides that, i survived during class just now *Big relief sigh. I must say it feels a little bit weird teaming up with all boys in one group (i've got no choice, teams were assigned by fasci). But we managed to go through the tension and problems together, cool bunch of people to work with. The presentation was a breeze and a clean one(: I enjoyed myself really well and i hope to get good grades for this module.

TABLE OF GLORY! i'm addicted to this show, awww.
Lucky me; nothing bad happened to lappy just now.

Dear boy (should i even call you dear? hmmm),

you can beg me for all you want to make me believe whatever you are saying. But please, i am not a fool, i won't let your sympathetic words eat me up. I can't stand another lie from you anymore. Don't you feel it's about time you stop all your nonsense? Ifah penat lah gini ..jangan ucap sayang kalau tak datang dari hati.

Candles - Hey Monday

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but "you're sorrys"
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

This fits eveything; you me.

Everything's going well; for now

2009-04-15T23:26:00.007+08:00

Orientation Programme was overall not so bad afterall. I am blessed to be part of a group who are co-operative and hyper. I do feel a sense of belonging when i'm with them. Honestly, i am looking foward for tomorrows' actitivites BUT the journey from Bedok to Woodlands is so hacking far! Haha, shouldn't think that way though 'cause i made new friends already *Smiles.

Aunt busu replied! "Tapi pendek jer, email die gile? alaaaaa. Syaf you know what? My aunt from Swiss nak order kasot dari kite for herself and my cousin when she reach Singapore. Tapi tak tawu bile lah, heeee. Best tak?"

I realized something today. Was exchanging numbers with new mates just now andandand i memorized my own number already. I remembered clearly when we were in Secondary School, Mande will help me write down/say out my handphone number whenever i needed them every single time. So dear Mande, you should be proud of me okay? Haha :D

Ouhouh, my handphone is alright already! Yeahhhh ahhhh.
Okayyyy, now i'm missing my secondary school friends)':

Blurt It Out!

2009-04-13T10:54:00.023+08:00

Adek showed me her recieved messages yeterday. I was glad that adek knew how to react and answer to those _____ questions and reasons. Boy, indeed he was pushing too hard; trying too hard.

I've never. NEVER asked anyone to plan any agendas for me. I prefer doing it spontaneously; which you never thought of and at one point of time you feel like doing that particular activity. I am only Seventeen. S.E.V.E.N.T.E.E.N! I don't want to get too tied down or having someone tooooo clingy on me (particularly on the phone, yelah kat dalam phone semue leh cakap tapi padehal padehal). Ughh, it just gets me on my nerves everytime i'm facing this. Grrrr.

You expect me to call to tell you my handphone is out of order? Ain't it enough coming out form adek herself that i can't be reached at this moment, i am afaird you jolly well make yourself understood with that fact. Gosh. It made me rolled my eyes when you said, "Tak per lah dek, abang dah tak der hari free lagi". So? Easy, don't meet up then. Mind you, we have 365.28 days in one year. And no more free time from you? LAUGH OUT LOUD!

This may sound ironic but ..
I am very 'amazed' by your time management, you have time for your rock climbing activities and outings blahblahblah (if you are suffering from leg pains and will be under-going an operation soon, isn't it better to stay at home and rest? You went out with your friends that day and you said you had fun, you also went for rock climbing last saturday! wow, you actually made me believe even more you exaggerated about your whole leg problems stories.) It's not that i am complaining or whatever. But i don't think you share an equal amount of time for me. And plusplus, you were never there for me when i needed you. So together, it made me numb and lazy to entertain to your pettiness. Ouch ..haha.

I may sound like a bad person right now. But i suggest you should have second thoughts before you shoot me with your lame reasons. 'Cause what is written down here is totally you. I don't care if others have a different perception of me. It's up to them, their choice. I won't say it out if i don't have a point here. You knew me.

In conclusion, i can't take this anymore.
Numb.

Enough of my ranting. I feel much lighter i must say :D

He managed to hit the record of having 1 million subcribers on youtube! That is alot, i bet the whole world is watching him. What i like about this guy is his 'heck-care-attitude'. Nasty comments doesn't stop him from continuing making those videos. I adore Fred, his irritating voice and his stories :D He never fails to make me smile, everytime.

Nabil menang anugerah bintang paling popular berita harian semalam! Double yay-ness *Clap hands.

2009-04-11T23:38:00.007+08:00

Today was busy. I wish i will continue being like this the whole time, whole day. At least i know i did something meaningful rather than just butting around at home.

First off, adeks' computer is back to normal already. Finally! So there is no more reason for her to kidnap my laptop anymore *Cheers. But the bad news is that her vista version and the RAM is muchmuch better and faster than mine. Okayyy wth -.-

Later in the afternoon followed cousin to tailor. I got all excited when the tailor was taking my measurments. Though Raya is still far way ahead, we have to send the designs and materials now in order to avoid 'last minute accidents'. Which once happened to me and yeah, it sucks.

AND THEN, i had to babysit my niece and nephew ..Anedy was well-behaved just now, smooth-sailing taking care of her. BUT 1 year old Andy was veryveryvery x100 active! Imagine having a toddler who can climb table, chairs and things that you are afaird this little saint would injured himself. You just can't rest for a bit, i tell you. He will also gobble anything, i mean ANYTHING which looks like food to him. That little rascal :D Oh well, i still love them both.

Had dinner with family and cousin and her husband and Anedy and Andy at simpang. The journey from Jurong to Bedok made me really famished as soon as we reached there. I ate two courses and ayah's unfinished Roti John :O heee~ Man, i'm a growing girl so it's not that bad i guess.

My handphone is giving me heart pain right now, i can receive messages but couldn't reply them! Ughhhh. Dear phone, you suck :D

But i won't get too upset with this. So i will be handphone-less for a couple of days or weeks. Sorry for all the unattended text messages. Nevertheless, you can still call me through my handphone number 'cause i am only 'allowed' to press the green and the red button, if you need to get in touched with me. One more thing, i am too lazy to be online these few days. It's going to be hushhush from me. I will re-appear when the cyber starts calling for me again.

Woooordy.
And NO, i am not suffering from any moodswings!
I'm gonna crash.
The end. Love the Nature, people :D

Jumping the whole day through

2009-04-10T19:42:00.013+08:00

CURRENT EMOTION: SUPER DUPER ABSOLUTELY OVERJOYED!
As you can see, i am THAT excited.

Right, so can't wipe out this smile ever since i received a greeting card and 'add-ons' from aunt busu and uncle aamir. Yeah ah! They really lightened up my day. And i've decided not to start grumbling about how bored i am sitting, rotting at home today as usual. Orientation is starting soon and then school will start proper. Just have to bear for a few couple more days *SMILES.

Was browsing snapshots ealier this morning, it took me awhile to realize adek ..she's insane infront of the camera! And decided to post it for fun *Smirk-ing.

And she kind of spread her insanity virus to me;

Sorry adek but you tempted me to do this. And i put up my pictures too, sooo its fair and square.

I met my primary school friend yesterday! Going to meet up soon for 'drink ups', exciting ..
Last but not least, love the Nature.

Status; Complicated (fullstop)

2009-04-09T22:09:00.005+08:00

Two died and pregnant women miscarriage, after eating 'Rojak Mama' at Geylang Serai due to food poisioning.

We, ibu and me, nearly wanted to eat rojak the same day the incident occured. Phew, thank god we changed our mind. If not ..only god knows. Alhamdullilah.

Went out with ibu and adek in the afternoon to watch The Unborn. The show was kind of retarded. We were laughing the whole time, it was not scary at all lahhh. And ibu, she fell asleep during the show. Laugh Out Loud! You see, seemingly, i have just wasted 30bucks. Alamak~ itu wang boleh digunakan untuk 'shopping' barang keperluan sekolah gue dehhh.

On the brighter side, i had a blast with ibu and adek :D

Tampines one, is like the center of attraction in Tampines now!
And Uni Qlo is currently the 'in-thing'(: bestbest.
I think i must start on my checklist, pronto.

TSK, stop it stop it stop it; where the hell does the tingle-ling feelings go? Damnnn.

First order! (Beatiful Boxes with black ribbon) Thank you poppy *BIG SMILES

My hands are itchy; i need to paint walls :O
Fred is cute, Lucas is cuter. heeee.

Last of all, spread some looove to Nature

Sweetsweet revenge :D

2009-04-07T02:11:00.020+08:00

So i have been cracking up my brains to come out with designs - simple yet elegant and cute (and of course syaf dearie helped me out here, thank you babe!). So here are the products;

This idea came popping into my head after wandering around at Pasir Ris Park. I didnt exactly found any ladybugs there but the design just flowed through.

To those who fancy BRIGHT SHINY stuffs, i think this design will suits you best. 'cause the golden stars sewed on it are S.H.I.N.Y!

My personal favourite! Finishing touches; white beads sewed on shoe and a ribbon tied at the back :D

Weaved green ribbon and messy prints boxes.

Like one? We can do it for you :D Just e-mail us at coloursplash@live.com for more enquires. Clearer view pictures; coming soon .. *And don't worry, it's waterproof.

andandand HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO SYAFIQAH NUR FITRI! i forgot to give you slaps yesterday but don't think you will get away from it. *evil grin. heeee.

-Better call aunt now, see want she wants. Been sleeping the whole day and afternoon :O

-N_________):

I can breathe, still

2009-04-04T20:00:00.007+08:00

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A'fifah Bte Boha'are (Ifah)
Turned Seventeen on sixteen of january two thousand and nine
Female, not a girl not yet a women
Passionate in designing and arts
Creativity is her forte
Love; Nature

Despite of all the mosquitoe bites, i still enjoyed my walk at Paris Ris Park. I am so lucky to be living and am able to feast my eys to God’s creation. The nature just touched me somehow. I do appreciate them alot because i believe every single breathing human on this Earth are only borrowing the nature from our younger/unborn generations. Therefore, we must all help Earth sustain itself for as long as it is suppose to be(:

Green is beautiful.

A special note

2009-04-01T18:49:00.011+08:00

Dear (insert name),

I am no more a little girl, you know. But you made me act like one. With you, i've became so naive and vulnerable all of a sudden. When you are down/frustrated, i tried my very best to keep you calm. I showed my support so that you can stand strong again. I showered tonnes of love and care because i know you are doing the same to me. And the most important thing of all, I put my trust, gave up my heart and soul, just to make/see you happy.

But why do you still do this to me? STOP telling me and the world you don't know what you did wrong. I'm sure you remembered every single thing you've done. Angry was never the reason why i acted this way; it was more to a disappointment. Honestly, am i not understanding enough for you? Have i ever bugged you with nonsensical attitude? If your answer is no for both, i guess the problem lies within you.

You fooled me once and i let you off. You did it again but i kept it low still. Please, i am not your toy. I too, have feelings. I can't afford to just sit around and keep my mouth shut. Sometimes i wonder; what more are you capable of in doing stuffs like this. It tore me to just think about it.

I read you recent post. And that is why i am having this long post specially for you. I want you to know, you are always inside my prayers. I do want to see you well and succeed in whatever you are doing. You are that special to me and it's hard to see you go. I hope your 'hospital-trip' will do just fine. I really do.

I waited for your text message the whole day today. Yes, my phone did beep but none of the texts came from you. I know you are packed with rock climbing and friends and whatever but that doesn't mean you can lie to me.

Boy, i've never done such thing to you. You should know me well by now, i hate L.I.A.R.S.
(Think about it. You played me and my trust.)

Ifah

Syaf dearie, sorry for not updating todays' outing pictures. But i did had fun with you just now; the times we got so excited for no particular reason. I hope you liked your advance birthday present. Ifah sayaaaaaang kamu. Don't worry, i'll upload the pics soon. Take care ya. Can't wait for our 'photo shoot' again :D

2009-04-01T11:41:00.009+08:00

Teruskanlah - Agnes Monica

Pernahkah kau bicara
Tapi tak didengar
Tak dianggap
Sama sekali..

Pernahkan kau tak salah
Tapi disalahkan
Tak di beri
Kesempatan

Kuhidup dengan siapa
Ku tak tau kau siapa
Kau kekasihku tapi
Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta buta
Kebutuhan mu

Intuition

2009-03-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

"Every each crossroad, we choose the path we feel is best because there is always room for compassion. Change is the nature of the universe; we all hold on to our fears. It's about time you let your fear go."

I've gotten what i want. But i have to let go off something in return. Unfair? Thier answer; This is real life. The title depicts the whole 'epic'.

Bab no: ?

2009-03-29T22:54:00.005+08:00

"Memang aku sengaje tak nak bilang. Aku tahu kalau aku bilang orang, semua akan anggap aku meniru. Terpulanglah kalau engkau hendak percayakan aku atau tidak. Itu hak engkau."

Mia merenung tepat ke arah sahabatnya, sabar menanti jawapan tetapi tidak sepatah pun yang dilontarkan. Dia mula mengatur langkah untuk beredar dari tempat itu kerana tidak sanggup menanggung suasana hening yang sedang dihadapinya. Perasaan dan fikirannya menjadi bertambah bercelaru ...

Kadang-kadang, kite kene telan dengan tomahan orang. Insyallah, Tuhan akan tolong kite kalau kite benar.
-Ifah

In the process..

2009-03-27T16:58:00.011+08:00

Syaf dearie, i've got loads and loads of designs in mind every second i blink! I am so loving the 'ideas-are-flowing' kind of mood. We should meet up and go shopping real soon, pleaseeeee. I hope this will work. Keep it hushhush until everything is done, will ya? *Beaming.

Current status: Head/Brian cells are not functioning well with vocabs and adjectives and words for the next paragraph. The sentences doesn't seem to be alright, the meanings are too vake. I didn't know writing a novel can be this tough. God, please help to keep myself focus on this one too.

Appreciate colours; without them we are all dull people!
-Ifah

http://www.nia-ru.blogspot.com/

2009-03-26T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'm a fan of him! :D

ahmad nabil bin ahmad. heeee.

Preview

2009-03-24T11:28:00.006+08:00

Nenek is here probably for a few weeks or a month or so *big smiles. Kecoh sikit rumah nie..

I think i have compiled efficient materials to start on my first malay novel. There's no harm trying, right? To those who are interested, drop me an e-mail so that i can send you the synopsis of the story. But it will take sometime cause i am just starting on it.

I will be waiting for the results. Gimme the CD soon kay and ya you can call me anytime for the shoot cause am truely free now, cousin :P Maceh.

http://www.nia-ru.blogspot.com/ (nak promote ..heeee)

2009-03-23T12:54:00.006+08:00

Chatted with Tina yesterday; her updates were so cool. It brought me back to the old days, she was my very first friend in Changkat. And i remembered clearly how i get to make friends with her. Good old times. Everyone is going their separate ways now. It's difficult to cope with it sometimes. But life is meant to be this way; people leave.

I'll bring these 4 years of memories along to where ever i go. Though it seems, nothing's going to be the same anymore ..because i love every single soul of them.

They lead me to where i am now, thank you dear friends.

Gaining friends takes you awhile, losing them needs only a few seconds.
-Ifah

www.nia-ru.blogspot.com

2009-03-20T14:13:00.006+08:00

Ibu is spending more time on her new business which means; busybusy = lesser naggings! However, i am left to complete most of the house chores. But it's alright ibu says my cooking has gone better. Nak mengampu lah tu.. Ibu asked me to try help her out with one of her gubahan. So i gave it a shot.

Jeng jeng jeng ..

Here's the outcome. It is actually a shower towel, made it into a few round balls, decorate it with leaves and flowers and yeah; oranges. It's a little bit messy here and there. Well, at least i tried and ibu says i can help her for her next order. Mann, tu yang ifah nak dengar.

Jadi kalau sape-sape yang berminat hendak buat tempahan gubahan untuk majlis pertunangan atau perkahwinaan ataupon saje-saje jer nak browsing browsing, sila lah layari http://www.nia-ru.blogspot.com/. Terima Kasih.

Sabar sabar, terase ke? Baguslah kalau ade perasan gitu. If you have the cheek to blog about me, then i have my guts too. It's so sad cause you didn't get me the other day and babe, i talked to you eye to eye dalam bahase melayu lagi? HAH, this just shows how plainly (fill it for yourself) you are. Stop all your crap and get out of your nonsense world. Malas lah ifah nak layan, this will be the last time i am emphasizing this to you; HAPPY LIVING CAUSE NOONE IS EVER GOING TO LISTEN TO YOU THIS TIME ROUND :D

Don't mind me.

Won't be here till sunday, take care ya'll.

Magic power posessed; ability to be invisible

2009-03-17T00:15:00.005+08:00

Kamu yang bawaku terbang.
Kamu jua yang membawa cinta ke jalannya.

I am not a real fan of 'the fabulous cats' but i do like the rhythm of this song. However, i find the lyrics are crap. I tried finding the real meaning of the whole story line (read it like more than 5 times). And still, i failed trying to understand their work.

Selalunye, cinta tu buta. Jarang yang boleh ade jalan yang betol.

Adek came back from camp. She smells camp, ughh. She slept the whole evening without thinking of food? She's drained, not in any mood for jests which is why i am super duper bored now. I hope she will gain back her energy soon and be back to her old self again.

It looks like most of them are really enjoying their holidays. Spending time with their love ones, missing you and her and him and them. Sometimes it just sets myself thinking; i've turned invisible(:

Okay akim if you are reading this. YES, METHANE GAS POLLUTES THE AIR BUT YOUR FART IS MUCHMUCH WORSE THAN THE SMELL OF COW DUNKS :D

2009-03-15T23:31:00.008+08:00

Working was fun. Betoooool ~ I only go out during weekends and weekends is when i go out for work. Hah, ape nonsense lah ifah.

'Coming Soon' was fun-nay! I like the 'hand-bag' part. But ass thought it was scary, whatever because this proves im much much much much stronger than you do :D

I am too tired when it comes to that particular topic but i somehow could find the strength to open it up. I will just keep this short and simple cause i don't even bother to elaborate. You said you treasure, cherish, appreciate. Now its akward? Ohhhh i know why ...i was never a part of your circle, girl?

Memang dah slalu orang buat gini kan? Dugaan Tuhan, aku reda. Amin.

2009-02-15T22:17:00.008+08:00

Yesterday was hectic at work. I don't get it why she call it a buffet dinner if we have to serve the guests still? Different managers, different style of working? I think half of my effort at work yerterday was redundant. Hated the uniform the most, it was so unpresentable and sloppy. I wonder how the rest of her staffs could even bare with her irritating attitude.

Thank god i was only there to help out. Working with the unknown humans for about approximently 5 hours was way too long for me to survive there. Heee~ I prefer the 'crazy but organized bunch of people' i belonged to.

So Taufiq will be in the same school, same course as mine. I'll have company for lunch then. Weee~ :D

RP, school of technology for the arts

2009-02-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

So when someone asks me this question; which school do i go to now? My answer will be different this time.

I don't care what people are going to say about the new school im attending to. Cause some of my relatives and friends have been there before and they did well. And besides, im doing what i love right now. It's not going to be that bad, isn't it? Just have to cope with the different atmosphere once there. Let's see how it will turn out to be. But for now, i am loving what i get. Alhamdullilah.

Republic Polytechnic, Design for Interactivity(:

Hey babe, i'm not mad at you anymore. LOVE YA!

2009-02-10T22:38:00.004+08:00

so i have to spoil everyones' mood including mine.

thank you 'today'.

get the shaver, i'll shave my head bald.

2009-02-09T19:25:00.006+08:00

Aunt Sus' idea of having me coming over to Switzerland was enough to keep me thrilled for the rest of the day. I will definatelydefinately wait till the right time arrives(:

We weren't suppose to behave in that manner. The one where you went shouting all over the place and left me 'dumb' watching you in that state (hearing you; to be precised). I know my limits well. You do have the rights to feel the way you felt but i believe i do not deserve that treatment you gave. You meant bringing me back, i know but still i think you were unfair.

Honestly, i wasn't angry or sad at all. It was more to a dissappointment. The reason why i didn't wish to tell you was because i could sense this will turn out bad in the end. And not happily keeping a secret from you. We've walked through a long way and it's going to be a waste if we were to stop halfway; left clueless to where we should go next.

I was flipping through your textbook this morning. Saw everything you wrote down; from ink to pencil scribbles, from the fresh to the erased ones. It all explains to me one thing and you know it for yourself. We knew what we wanted all along. We've wished for tonnes of exciting stuffs. We promised to fulfill our goals together. Now what?

The message was not purposely moved in, it was there in the first place. And i can't make _______ stop his feelings. You wouldn't feel you are at risk, would you? Hah, because ...

ifah sayang atap(:

2009-01-25T12:44:00.003+08:00

Like i've said, we have to bring a map for our next outing alright? Despite of all the wrong routes we took, i really had a blast. And i love you dearly :D

2009-01-15T12:40:00.005+08:00

02 Jan - Abang Firs' Birthday.
03 Jan - Cousin Seris' Birthday.
05 Jan - Adek Afie Ucle Aamir Mummy Ruby(s)' Birthdays.
07 Jan - Taufiq's Birthday.
09 Jan - Cousin Faizs' Birthday.
11 Jan - Aunts' Birthday.
14 Jan - Abangs' Birthday.
16 Jan - Cousin Mikhail Niece Wani My Birthday.
19 Jan - Didis' (Primary School) Birthday.
20 Jan - Sharms' Birthday.
21 Jan - Didis' Birthday.
24 Jan - Tina's Birthday.

Anyone belong in the Jan family? Searching for people to fill in the spaces for the missing dates here. Heeee(:

Great and i have to go for work on my birthday.

2009-01-11T20:46:00.005+08:00

Results tomorrow, manymany things are running inside my mind. All the mixed feelings are reuniting themselves once more. Wishing the very best to all peeps for tomorrow!

"I gave up about getting annoyed by your attitude. You've changed alot. Everytime i think i got you back, you went much further. Stop promising me cause im tired of hearing it from you. I got that everytime and it was all empty. It's your life, your choice. I can't stop you. I know i am just your puppet now. I just wish you would notice me and untie the strings. Please let me walk on my own from now onwards. I am beginning to _____ you."

Happy Birthday Adek!

2009-01-05T14:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY A'FIDAH BTE BOHA'ARE! :D
May all your wishes come true and have a friutful year ahead of yours. Believe in yourself cause there are so many things that i know you can achieve out there. Always remember to be yourself. You are a wonderful little soul to me. So keep working on your ambitions and goals. I'll see you up there with the shining stars one day. Kakak Ifah loves you alooooooooooot! And i hope you liked the presents(:

come back to you later.

2009-01-02T19:49:00.003+08:00

"What's the difference of becoming a seventeen year old girl in a few days time? I rather stay being a toddler, it's better off that way. There's no use of speaking up. Because my life, it has no freedom."

2008-12-30T10:55:00.005+08:00

It's going to be ironic if i were to talk about that, you know what i mean. You just have to learn how to T.R.U.S.T me.

Events happened for the past few days.

Had a new haircut. Finally(:

So, do we have the cut to be the next batch of Singapore Girls? Nah, we are too petite for now.

Yesterday night.

LOL. She just can't make me stop laughing :D

No air.

2008-12-23T21:39:00.007+08:00

You are like my guyfriend when i need someone to hear me. You are like my gayfriend when i need the 'girly opinions'. And you are like my ass when i am/you/we are up to something no good. Thank you for understanding, your patience and your sincerity. Flood in more of your silly silly ideas alright? Because that will be one of the many things i need to keep myself going.

Sometimes you just have to turn those negative thoughts into something that you will be satisfied with at last. You can't be grumpy all the time right? Try to chuck all the moodswings you are having aside for awhile (Can't possibly blame moodswings everytime you are in a bad mood). People around will suffer. Be a little bit nicer to them. By doing that, you might find that 'thing' you are lacked off. Because not every bad things must end with terrible outcomes. You have the brains, think for yourself.
-Ifah

2008-12-22T23:41:00.014+08:00

Oh well, i was bored. Let see what i can share here :D

State 10 weird things/things that are inappropriate for you to do that other people might not know about it since the day they knew you. And by the end of this survey, tag 5 people to continue the chain.

Weird thing #1:
I will need a small bolster (bantal bucuk) whenever i go to sleep. Will even bring it along when i go for overseas trips if not it will be very difficult for me to even have a nap.

Weird thing #2:
Since young, i will try to touch the rainbow if one were to be seen. It has been a habit for me until now. So whenever you see my hands up in the sky ...you know what i'm up to.

Weird thing #3:
I have a collection of dresses which i keep it for don't know what sake. Haven't wear it till now.

Weird thing #4:
I hate hate hate cats! They look fierce. I prefer dogs; they are much cuter. And it's kind of wrong for a malay girl to say that, isn't it?

Weird thing #5:
I burp loudly in front of my close friends and even my bf :D

Weird thing #6:
Kfc will never be on my list for breakfast, lunch or dinner. Yuck.

Weird thing #7:
I prefer looking at geeks with thick and big specs cause to me, they are all weird people.

Weird thing #8:
Make-ups are the very last thing that i will wear except lip gloss. If you see me in make-ups, it's either #1: i am force to have it on, #2: during malay dance performances (which was like long time ago. Thank godness!) #3: when at work. Other than that, i will never put on any make ups when going out.

Weird thing #9:
I can wrap my whole body including my head with my blanket when i'm feeling cold at night even if the fan is switched off. And i can sleep better in that kind of state.

Weird thing #10:
I have this sickness/allegy named 'hives'. It will only come out when i'm in contact with dusts and will start scretching my whole body when it strikes.

5 tags:
1. Ali
2. Bala
3. Carrie
4. Dora
5. Emily

That's me(:

2008-12-22T22:15:00.009+08:00

I am currently reading a malay novel 'Saat Mencintaimu'. It may sound mushy or mashy (whatever) but it's not the usual teenage love story. It's about love towards parents and God and for friendship. Okay, maybe there's a little part about having feelings towards the opposite gender. And the story gets more exciting when the author talks about laws and courts, she's witty in making the 'hero' sounds clever. But what i didn't like about the author is that she kept repeating her usage for certain words and her sentences became so predictable everytime i am reading the next paragraph. But still overall, the book is interesting.

It is very obvious that i have plenty of free time at home cause i usually go for work during the weekends. I am trying my best to stay put here, go out only if i have something fruitful/important things to do. So i've found myself doing things that i don't usually get to do while i'm at school. Like eating more that 5 meals a day, have loooooong naps in the afternoon, shouting at the very top of my voice when im hungry and i can have more than 3 showers in a day. How cool is that? Very :D Maybe i must plot a timetable from now onwards, should include the library as one of the places to visit before i grow fat! Hmmm, anyone wanna tag?

Last sunday was all a last minute thing. Everything was happening in a fast pace especially if you were to be placed to work with/at a (societys' name insert) weddings. All they want is perfect. Crazy men! Who on this Earth is perfect? Menyirap darah layan orang macam nie. Tapi tak per lah kate 'experience' kan.

I am still squeezing every bit of my brain muscles thinking of what to buy for abangs, adek afie and didi. Till now, i have had not a single clue yet on what to buy for these people on their birthdays. Tsk..

2008-12-18T19:57:00.005+08:00

CONGRATS TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS! :D Now give yourself a break cause you all need them. Ifah love you.

Gee and then it's my turn.

Anyone wants us to be in the 'Sunkist' ad? Laugh Out Loud.

2008-12-17T15:26:00.018+08:00

It's the same old story, similar story line. Saying i am this, i am that, i am blablabla. I guess you don't know me well enough then. I do mix around with the crowd, i am not anti-social. Please don't judge me the way you always did. YOU, should too judge your own kids. They were the ones who pushed me around everytime we meet. I just kept my mouth shut because i knew i can never win if you were to ask for my opinion. I took whatever they commented about me, it was never good. I didn't even spill abit to anyone. (okay maybe now i did, a little)

Sometimes i just wonder, why do people do this to me and adek? Was it us? Or was it simply just them? There will be no answers for this question. They will always blame us. We, 'the anti-social siblings'. COME ON! I mean, we do talk to them. It's just them who blardy hell doesn't want to open up their mouths. Em, Ahh, Ohhh was their only answers. Sape yang tak give up nak bebual dengan orang macam gitu? Boring kan? Now they are pointing fingers at us? 'Wonderful' :): What really broke my heart; this came from aunt.

This sucks, you should see us communicate with our friends one day. We are not the way you think we were, seriously!

Hah. Who cares? You won't be able to read this also. Fishhhhhhhhh.

Good luck syaf darling (blurshit), leticia honey, ass dearie, dyana and all the students who will be taking their 'N' Level results tomorrow! I'll include everyone of you inside my prayers :D

2008-12-16T21:34:00.008+08:00

Syaf Ifah Irah Aunt Era/Ira Shaza

Syaf and me: *smiling to a group of people who were eating.
Chinese guy: *stood up. Can take photo? Photo? (Clicking on his camera button)
Me: Ape die nak? -What does he want?
Syaf: Ambek gambar eh? -Take a picture with us?
Chinese guy: Photo?
Syaf and me: OKAY! *grinning.
Our manager: Wahhh, you are famous already. *laughing.

That was roughly what happened the other day while we were working. The group of Chinese people snapped around 5 pictures in total with Syaf and me. Maybe it was their first time attending a malay wedding. It was hilarious because different kinds of things occur everytime we work there. I can't wait till the next time round comes. macam-macam~

I prefer working here than at Hyatt :D

Abang <3

2008-12-15T18:09:00.008+08:00

First and for most: HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH! :D Too bad you have to go for work today. But it's okay we'll celebrate your birthday when you are free. I love you!
-Ifah.

There is this one particular person that i have not mention ever since i made this new blog. It is not because i have totally forgotten about him. Every time i think about what we did, i realized i did not treasure him as much as i thought i did. He was always there for me, i know. Whenever i am down, he just know how to use the right words to comfort me. I can talk crap all day long without him getting angry at me. The thing that i really miss alot doing is having debates with him. Especially during history! Hitler and Stalin (the two cuties). And smacking each others' foreheads whenever we feel like it. Yeah it's rude but who cares?

Because we were just like us

I remembered how much i hated him at the beginning of the year. But that was different back then. I felt guilty after knowing him in person. Thank you for all the care, concern and love you have showered me. Although i know you rarely show it (cause you can be an ass sometimes :P) but i know what you did was honest and i trusted that. You have been an awesome big brother to me too. You thought me how to be straight-foward towards people (but not too straight-foward like you. Heee~) and i picked that up since i knew you. Thank you again and i am really hoping to see you soon, for roller blading? Or maybe during our birthdays? :D and i hope you are reading this because at least you will know that i missed you. Heee~ Good luck for your first day of work next week!

2008-12-13T20:39:00.006+08:00

I wish i could express my feelings just like them. It was all true, i can sense everyone there was on the verge of crying. I saw one of the guys sitting in front of me wiping his tears (finally, i mean a guy). The play did touched my heart, it's as if they were all representatives of all the other children, us who are physically or verbally abuse or both. Thank you for speaking up for them.

Let me rewind back to this moment.
It was when there was only one, before the other came.
You were there beside me, you see.
Just to snap that cheeky moment of mine.

Let me bring you back to that memories.
The memories that i will keep within myself, forever.
The memories i think you yourself will cherish inside.
It was went i took my very first stand.

Let me lead you the way to where i am now.
This is my stage, my show, my say.
I ask for nothing much but for you to be there.
Hoping that you would understand me one day.

Thank you.

2008-12-10T23:01:00.004+08:00

"Dah malas nak dengar alasan die lagi. Sekarang ni ape yang die nak bagitawu, cakap je lah. Ifah 'ye'-kan aje. Dah jelak nak dengar cerite dolak-dalik die. Ifah malas, jemu, penat. Die ingat ifah ni bengang sangat ke? Ifah tawu die cakap bohong. Naseb die memang baek, ifah maseh boleh sabar lagi ni. Jangan sampai ifah naek angin. 'Confirm' die tak suke. Ifah tak suke lah kalau kene bodoh-bodoh. Masalahnye sekarang ni, siape ifah kat lubuk hati die tu? Patung boneka agaknye ..."

I did a 'shoe makeover' to my old school shoe a few days ago. Only today i get to paint the last code for the baby blue surface. As usual, it's superman. It's not my best work, maybe it's because of my 'heck-care-attitude' these few days. But i've promised myself that i would put in my heart and soul for the next shoe design :D and this reminds me to search for syaf's customised shoes. heee.

So here's the shoe;

It is supposed to be that way: yellow and white :D

My handphone has seemed not to be co-operating with me. I apologise for all the unattended messages and late replies. I will get back to you guys as soon as i get the opportunity. Sorry again to keep all of you waiting.

I'm tired.

AIZAT <3

2008-12-09T11:12:00.012+08:00

Can i change my mind of not listening to malay songs? I admit malay songs are not really my favourite thing. Thanks to this guys' compositions and melodies of his songs; i'm addicted to it! And i must say his malay vocabs are superb. And he is only 19?

AIZAT :D

Hanya Kau Yang Mampu

Ku cuba redakan relung hati
Bayangmu yang berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo
Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo

This is so much better than my malay composition. Heee~ :D

2008-12-07T15:10:00.007+08:00

I don't have anything much to blog about these days. So let me share something i did quite some time ago. I did these during the Ramadan season, decided to give my room an extra look. Painted one of the corner of my walls with flower motives by using poster colours(:

One of my favourite painted flowers :D

The complete painting.

The final look with the shelves.

I took three days to complete this and was satisfied with the results. It was my first try and would love to do even more of these stuffs in the future. I had fun doing this, you should try too! :D

and akim if you are reading this, you gave me the 'flower' idea of posting this today(:

A Special Note

2008-12-06T00:53:00.006+08:00

A'fidah

To my dearest adek Fidah, yes i know what they did to you was harsh and it was difficult for you to accept it. I've been through that alot of times too. But i want you to know that God will always be there for someone who is being endangered by other people. They'll get what they deserve one day. Take this as a test okay? It hurts me badly to see you crying. I know you are stronger than who you think you are right now. You can ALWAYS come to me when you need help or whatever. Because i love you and you are the best sister that i could ever ask for! :D you are like my bestfriend at home. xoxo.

I'll get back with something more really soon(:

2008-11-28T21:51:00.007+08:00

My plan of visitng Syaf at her grandma's today could not be met appearently (i haven't even reply her text message). Maybe i'll go meet her after this gastric flu is gone, going to be fine soon :D

Things I didn't think of doing until today:
1) Start drawing/colouring/creating! :D
2) Play more online games (rarely do this but now i'm hooked)
3) Browsing through www.ikeahacker.blogspot.com (This site is faved)
4) Looking back at long long ago snaps.
5) Listening to Taufik Batisah's CD *screaming* Let me go wild over him again :D

Thanks to these 5 things above i managed to keep my mind going instead of reminding myself how painful the gastric pain is.

Things I hated doing today:
1) Going to the doctor.
2) Popping medicines before/after each meals.
3) Spending time in the toilet puking after meals.

If i were to list down names in my 'missed list' it would be a very long one. I really do want to see them badly. I missed the classroom, my seat, my classmates. It's funny to have the opposite feeling of school during this period of time. But life has to move on.

In random order:
Mande Syaf Abangs (Wei Lun and Fir) Muhd My ass Dyana Tutor Rebecca Echo-G Jessica Mariam ...and the list continues.

2008-11-27T13:27:00.006+08:00

At least he was honest. We are only 16 anyway, there are alot of things left for us to uncover. Exploring is still in process. It's just like karma and we have to learn to accept it. I may not be with him anymore one day or maybe will be drifted apart somedays. But as for now, lets just go with the flow and enjoy every coming episodes with each other. For he is included in the bunch of people which i called: Loves a girl, likes a girl(: ( i am glad that i am cool with it just for now)

Get what i was trying to say the other time? That it is quite difficult to find the real meaning of 'happiness'? All along i thought it was FOC and could be obtained anywhere, everywhere. But as i grew older, i began to know that you have to work for it in order to gain it for yourself. And you can't always expect people to adore you the way you want them to. This video has helped me to understand that...but why is happiness so complicated? Because i thought humans were all made for a common purpose.

2008-11-25T22:02:00.005+08:00

Before i begin, let me tell you i am not normally like this. I am a very very nice girl indeed (really!). So whoever's reading this and will get really effected after the whole post is done, you know it! This post is specially for you :D psst, i've said it once to you face to face but maybe you just don't get what i was saying the other time. You will understand better if you read? i think so too, so here it goes..

Excuse me miss. I know you were never happy for who i am in person. You have always been trying to pick on me even for the slightest thing, which i don't blardy hell understand why. What's wrong with me wearing a dress with sneakers? I wonder how was that suppose to be borthering you. You are just plainly being ridiculous by saying i am not a lady-like. HAH, whatever. It just tickled me after seeing you with the same 'stlye' that you called awful the other day. So who's now with no sense of originality? So stop bitching around my back before i bicth you upside down. Angry? You tell me how it feels okay? Cause i truly understand you honey :D

Last post label editted:
~~IKEA and~~ abang :D

2008-11-24T11:15:00.007+08:00

Lagun Sari Waiteresses

Working at Lagun Sari yesterday was pure pleasure. To be honest it was nerve-wrecking for me because i am aware that i can be very clumsy at times. But i managed to pull it off :D Although it was day one for the four for us (Syaf, Eeka, Ira and me), the people there treated us as if we belong to their big 'family'. Tired? Yes, but it was a wonderful opportunity that any teenager like me would find worth experiencing. It's a good feeling to have your own manager praising you when it was only your first day at work. We are hounored and really hope that our service will be needed the next time round.

IKEA and abang :D

2008-11-23T00:04:00.007+08:00

I am not sure what drove me to do this but i have a little confession to make. I am obsess with superman since young. I remembered clearly what attracted me to this guy; his colour combinations for his superhero costume. Bright and colourful! And NO, it was not because of him wearing his undies outside (like what my sister said). I don't know, i just find him cool. Wish he could bring me for a spin for my next years' birthday present :D In my dreams ( but that would be enough for me).

SUPERMAN!

To dyana;
It was nice to know that you enjoyed reading my compo. I didn't expect anyone to read it actually cause i am aware it's long. Thank you for your time and the compliments. Do drop by again when you are free aites(: Stay strong and i love you too.

2008-11-21T20:48:00.004+08:00

Yesterdays' plan was so unexpected. I wouldn't call it a plan as it was not planned at all. After a long two months or so, i finally get to meet up SYAFIQAH NUR FITRI! :D At first i thought there will surely be 'an akward silience atmosphere' but we ended up being chatty (okay maybe it was me who were being talkative). We did alot of catching up, there were so much to say to each other. It's okay we will meet up soon, together with mande like we've already planned. I LOVE THE SHITS! :D :D

Syaf;Mande

Once again thank you for giving me the opportunity to mend the gap between us. It has been longed since we both have a heart to heart conversation. I want you to know that i always cherish the moments we shared and treasure you dearly. But i wish you can give me a little bit more time for me to have the courage to spill my stories to you. Please don't let ourselves be astray to one another again. As for now, take care of your health and am looking forward for our next outing. i love you dear brother(:

2008-11-20T12:13:00.007+08:00

GOOD GREETINGS EVERYONE! If i were to be in school today, i will probably keep my eyes stucked onto the whiteboard and have my ears tuned to whoever is teaching the class right now. I am missing my fellow classmates and school dreadly. I need to study! Although i am not giving up on finding a job and trying to find any charity organisations to serve every now and then, i still miss reading and studying my textbooks. This is simply annoying.

This ass will be back here in another two days time. I can't wait for another food hunting with him. I can't believe i always eat more than he does whenever we go out. Well, at least i can keep myself pre-occupied when he comes back home :D

Adek is also going bonkers, can tell from her very very unusual acts since this morning. She was the first one to be awake today, around 7 am? So early, crazy men. And she is now trying to juggle pillows inside my room. So can you try imagining having a partially insane little sister? It is very i n t e r e s t i n g. Wanna bet? :D

When will there be the next 'all girls outing'?

2008-11-19T11:17:00.022+08:00

I am currently very bored and have plenty of time to waste. Therefore, i decided to share one of my compositions cause i feel like typing non-stop now. Warning: This might be too wordy for some of you and its in malay. Anyways, enjoy! :D

Sofia Sayang Semua

Semua orang panggil aku Sofia kerana itulah namaku. Mama yang berikan nama itu. Ramai yang kata nama aku sedap didengar tetapi aku bingung akan sikap mereka. Mereka suka mentertawakan aku. Ia sudah menjadi seperti perkara yang lumrah bagi mereka menjadikan aku bahan tertawa mereka. Mereka yang aku anggap rakan sering memanggilku aneh. Apa itu aneh? Aku kurang jelas dengan makna tersebut, maklumlah aku baru sahaja berusia lima tahun. Ayah menasihatkan aku supaya jangan hiraukan kata-kata mereka. Aku sebenarnya tidaklah seaneh yang mereka sangkakan selama ini. Apa yang membezakan aku dengan rakan-rakanku di sekolah adalah hanya perwatakan dan cara pemikiranku yang berlainan dari manusia biasa. Ayah kata lagi, aku sepatutnya bersyukur kerana telah dicipta khas oleh Tuhan. Aku tidak seperti orang lain disebabkan keadaanku yang luar biasa sejak dilahirkan. Aku mendengar penjelasan ayah itu dengan tenang. Aku memang istimewa, tidak tahu pula bagaimana aku boleh mendengar bisikan hatiku ini. Serta-merta, aku melemparkan senyuman kepada ayah. Aku sayang ayah.

Aku juga mempunyai seorang abang. Abang sahajalah tempat aku bermanja ketika ayah sibuk dengan tugasnya. Aku sangat selesa apabila abang berada disisiku kerana dia tidak pernah mentertawakan aku seperti rakan-rakan di sekolah. Dia juga tidak pernah menganggap aku aneh malah dia selalu mengajarku sesuatu yang belum pernah aku cuba. Abang pernah mengajarku bagaimana hendak membuat kapal terbang kertas. Dia mampu menghasilkan kapal terbang kertas itu dengan pantas tetapi buat diriku ia amat rumit sekali. Walaupun abang tahu bahawa aku memerlukan masa yang agak panjang bagi proses pembelajaranku, dia tetap sabar melayan segala kerenahku ini. Baginya, semua orang mempunyai tahap kepantasan dan kecerdikan mereka tersendiri. Oleh itu, dia tidak pernah memaksa aku jika aku tidak dapat memahami apa yang telah ditunjuk ajarnya. Sangat mulia hati abang. Aku sayang abang.

Mama juga aku turut sayangi. Aku sangat meminati suara mama yang lunak ketika dia bernyanyi. Cuma aku tidak suka apabila suaranya menjadi kuat setiap kali dia bertutur denganku. Dengan ayah dan abang, tidak pula begitu. Sudah acap kali mama mengatakan benda yang serupa kepada aku. Aku tidak faham mengapa dia harus mengatakan perkara yang sama berulang kali. Sehinggakan semua kata-kata mama yang dilontarkan telah berjaya aku hafali. Dia suka sangat membandingkan aku dengan abang kerana abang cerdik. Abang tidak pernah gagal untuk menghadiakan kedua orang tuaku keputusan yang amat memuaskan dalam peperiksaannya. Aku sedar itu yang mama inginkan daripadaku juga. Namun, aku masih gagal untuk memenuhi permintaannya. Mama tidak tahu betapa sedihnya aku apabila mama memberitahuku semua ini. Aku mengaku diriku lembab dan amat daif di mata kasar mama. Kalau diberi pilihan, aku pasti mama juga tidak mahu memilikiku sebagai zuriatnya. Siapalah yang inginkan seorang anak yang terencat akal seperti aku ini? Tidak mengapalah, mungkin suatu hari nanti akan terbuka juga pintu hati mama untuk menerima diriku seadanya.

Mama tengking aku lagi akibat tidak dapat melaksanakan tugasan yang diberikannya dengan sempurna.

"Mama suruh buat kerja senang ini pun engkau tidak boleh buat? Memang lembablah engkau, Sofia!" Suara mama meninggi.

Aku tidak sengaja. Aku takut, lututku longlai ketika aku sedar aku telah memecahkan pasu kegemaran mama. Aku hanya berdiri mendiamkan diri di sudut dinding rumah. Hatiku terus berdentum dengan pantas apabila mama menghampiriku dengan rotan. Mama kata dia sudah bosan dengan kelembapanku ini dan sudah berputus asa untuk memahami aku lagi. Dia malu kerana telah melahirkan anak seperti aku yang telah menyebabkan dirinya menderita. Aku tidak tahu apa yang telah merasuk diri mama sehingga dia berpendapat sebegitu. Dengan hati yang sedang semarak membara kemarahan, mama memukulku tanpa belas kasihan. Aku terpaksa merelakan rotan mama singgah ke jasadku. Biarlah, aku ingin memuaskan hati mama. Semakin lama, semakin bisa pukulannya. Sakit mama, sakit!

Mujurlah abang pulang sekolah awal, dia sahajalah yang dapat menolongku pada waktu itu. Dengan pantas abang menarikku dari genggamman erat mama dan mendakapku supaya dia dapat memberiku perlindungan. Kasihan abang, baju sekolahnya yang baharu dipakai untuk ke sekolah habis dibasahi dengan air mataku. Selalunya, mama akan berhenti kerana dia lebih menyayangi abang dan tidak rela mencederakannya tetapi kelakuan abang kali ini telah membuat mama bertambah berang lagi. Abang juga dijadikan mangsa mama tetapi abang tidak menangis seperti aku. Dia berani. Dia mendakapku lebih kuat lagi sehingga nafasku tersekat sambil meyakinkan aku bahawa semua ini akan berakhir tidak lama lagi.

Tanggapan abang salah. Mama menarik kami dua beradik dari sudut dinding tadi. Tarikkan mama terlalu kuat buat kami. Pelukan kami terlepas lalu abang tersembam ke lantai. Suasana menjadi hening. Kenapa mama diam? Aku terus mendapatkan abang. Perut abang berlumuran darah. Serpihan kaca pasu mama yang bertaburan di lantai tadi telah tertusuk ke perut abang. Wajah abang berkerut, dia seperti dalam kesakitan. Mama terus menangis dan terduduk di lantai. Dengan perlahan-lahan, mama merangkak ke sisi abang. Dalam masa yang sama juga, ayah melangkah masuk ke dalam rumah. Memang biasanya ayah pulang sebegini waktu. Ayah beristighfar dan begergas ke arah abang. Ayah terus menekan punat telefon bimbitnya. Tidak tahu apa yang dia bualkan melalui telefonnya itu. Ayah kelihatan cemas. Kenapa semua berkelakuan aneh? Sekarang siapa yang sebenarnya aneh; aku atau mereka? Selalunya mereka akan berjenaka sesama sendiri apabila abang di rumah. Aku bingunglah.

"Adik, adik mesti janji belajar rajin-rajin ya. Dengar cakap mama dengan ayah. Abang hendak rehat sekejap selepas ini abang hendak pergi jauh. Adik tidak usah tunggu abang. Abang sayang Sofia. Kita semua sayangkan Sofia." Abang mengusap rambutku dengan perlahan-lahan sambil memandang wajah mama dan ayah. Dalam waktu yang sama, aku mengesat air mata abang yang berlinangan di pipnya.

Abang senyum kepada kami. Kalau abang senyum tandanya abang gembira bukan? Tetapi kenapa mama dan ayah menangis? Tangisan mama mengalir semakin deras apabila abang menutup kedua-dua kelopak matanya.

"Sofia sayangkan semua. Sofia juga sayangkan abang. Semoga abang mimpi yang indah-indah." Aku berbisik ke kuping telinga abang dan memberi kucupan di dahinya. Itulah yang selalu dilakukan abang sebelum aku masuk tidur.

This was my last malay composition before graduating from high school. I hope it somehow touched some of the readers and learn something from here. Every single one of us is special and have the rights to be loved especially the elderly, handicaps, the ones who needed more attention than we do and even our own haters. It's okay to spread love cause; Life's too short to be hated and hating :D

2008-11-18T19:28:00.012+08:00

Alright almost everyone is blogging about the previous grad nite we had. For me, i don't wish to cause i've made a fool out of myself, i guess. World peace.

Went out with abang today for job hunting for me. I failed miserablely AGAIN! :D :D I don't know what is exactly wrong with me. Or maybe them? But it's okay, we have to experience shit-ness before we get something we want right? Well, at least that is my own opinion.

There is always something that i wish to tell them but i can't bring myself to. I tried to speak up to abang today but can't. Maybe it's embrassing to share this with people or even the close ones. I may look happy or smiling or laughing or talking nonsense most of the time and sometimes i just wished that people wont noticed that it is all acted out. Cause it is just simply difficult for me to understand what is the real feeling of happiness. I hate it when i get yelled at, i just don't like it when mummy and daddy accuse me of things that i didn't do at all. And what did i do when i received all this; i just kept my mouth shut. I thought i was strong enough, i knew i could go through this alone but i as i think back i realized i couldn't. And that is why i wish i can go far far away from here. The end.

Okay i changed my mind a little. Won't be blogging about it but pictures will do?

The lovey dovies

The gays?

My WIFEY! :D

Abg Fir; Mande Dearie

Taufiq; Taqyy

The Jan babies :D

Azhary

My SUPER gay partner; Haziq

The farter in class; Soon Hong

Clement

The Prom King! Isaac

Echo-G

My apologies for not posting all the gradnite snaps. There is something wrong with my comp's upload. I'll try pass you guys the photos online. Just nudge me aites?

I just realized that there were hatered no more on that night. Thank you friends for all these four years. Let the pass be itself and start afresh from now. Please don't bid goodbyes. I love every single soul of you :D

2008-11-11T11:25:00.001+08:00

O's are finally over. Just have to wait for results to be out next year. In the meantime, i have quite a long holiday to enjoy :D but the thoughts were ruined when mummy asked to find a job earlier this morning.

I guess these few days will be flipping through the newspapers? How wonderful. But i will still not be giving up my wants to do volunteery work, so will be doing two jobs during the holidays. Man, there's a lot more things that i want to do. Maybe will be writing a few more malay compositions. I am just waiting for any competitons that i might want to participate in later. Now i'm excited. Will post one of them for readers(: (if they care to read) my apologise cause it's in malay.

Grad Night is in two days time. Time flies FAST! I am not really sure about the outfit that i am going to wear for that night. But whatever it may be, i am sure that night will be a memoriable one. We'll see how. I'm going to miss my friends. And teachers.

So i'm acddidted to this song and i think the choreo for this dance was also amazing. Will find the link for the video and post it if i remember(:

She's my wifey.
They are my big bros.
And he is my ass :D